January 8, 2018- A New Year

It is with mixed emotions that I await a new year. A new year means many things to people.....time to reboot, a fresh start, new directions or goals, maybe just a reason to celebrate. But for me, it is extremely bittersweet! While beginning a new year means ending a dreadful year of sadness and heartache, I find myself not ready to begin again.

Saying goodbye to 2017 is much more than turning the page of a calendar. To me, it means beginning a new year with a huge gaping hole in my heart and soul. It means moving forward without a part of me. So, to me, it is really just a number: 2018. Just another day “after” the day that divided and changed everything.

I love you always Dylan!